Getting better

12 days since the op and I'm finally beginning to feel a little less sore, a little less weak and a little less helpless. I'm still clueless as to what sort of diet to get into as even the hallelujah diet's lists of foods to eat offer little help because a lot of them I'm allergic to.

Its mostly hit or miss at the moment. I try to eat a little of most of them and stop eating it when I get asthma. I do miss ice cream and cake, both have dairy and both give me asthma.

When I was a child I remember being served foods I like as a reward for getting well after a sickness, apples, oranges, pear, grapes. Now I can only eat what food won't give me asthma and citrus fruits and fruits high in sugar is part of the allergen list. Coughing becomes quite painful since the wound isn't completely healed yet so I try and avoid eating anything that would trigger it.

When I'm able to sit down for longer periods of time I'll be able to make entrees in my visual journal. I'll be happier and will wallow in self pity less often. I'm mostly frustrated because I don't know what to do so I'm back on the web conducting more research on my food issues. Understanding my issues helps me cope with it.

Getting back to work. 'Will post more when I'm able.

Coming home again.

I got home from the hopsital 10 days ago. I actually tried to blog the very day I got home but blogger is in one of its spritz mood.

My plants have recovered from days of not being watered but my body had not recovered from the trauma of surgery.

3 days ago I went to the doctor for a post-op check up. I went walking to my place of work and sat and chat with collegues while I waited for the rain to stop. I went to the pharmacy to buy the new prescription on the way home.

I thought I was doing fine until I got home and started to feel achy and tired. So I went to bed and rested. The following morning I still felt tired and achy. When I cleaned and change the dressing on the wound, two of the spaces between sutures was agape and there was blood in the gauze. The doctor said this is normal because the subcutaneous layer of fat in that area was quite thick. Here we go again with the fat cause.

I'm not in denial about my heft but I'm not particularly keen on hearing my current primary health provider say that that's the reason why some spots on my wound are healing less rapidly than the rest of it even though its true. To my current doctor's credit she atleast did not smurk when she told be this. Call me sensitive or whatever else kind of label your can come up with but its not something I would like to hear at the moment when I'm vulnerable because I saw two gaping holes in the surgical wound on my stomach.

I'm venting yes. Its quite frustrating not being able to sit long enough to accomplish anything besides having a meal. Sitting causes the stomach muscles to contract and that's where the vertical wound is.

So before more complications arise. I'm hitting the publish button and will post when it doesn't entail much medical complications.

Going into surgery

I've been undergoing medical tests for the past 2 weeks and today, I’m going to be admitted to the hospital this afternoon for a hysterectomy & removal of my ovaries. I’m tired of going under the knife. I’ve had two surgical procedures done in the past 5 years to address the problems that endometriosis and HRT related complications have brought on.

HRT has resulted in an early onset of menopause and so I am currently experiencing estrogen dominance. I should’ve gone back to using natural progesterone (progest cream) when my period became irregular last year. Anyway, that’s all moot and academic now.

I’m just sharing with you all this detail so you don’t fall into the trap of being put on HRT (progestine) or synthetic hormones. As it is it seems like I'm gonna be on progest cream for the rest of my life but that's something I'm willing to accept instead of going under the knife every couple of years to clean up the mess of estrogen dominance.

I'll be home on Friday at the latest. I hope I can cath up on my journaling in the hospital. Its an opportunity to watch tv with cable though. Ha-ha! I figured I'll never get some sleep if I have cable so I don't have cable at home.

Here's affirming the success of the surgery and that my fast healing, and so it is!